She was a normal girl , I've known her for more than 10 years . I dont know why she was my idol when i was young . She was so arrogant though she was very cute , early in that age " and by age i mean 15 years old " i spent lots of time trying to gain her trust , she was a popular one at school , you can imagine how high school was .
Sometimes i hated her because she was so demanding , so dominant on people around her , though i still love her and feel that she really made a difference in my life .
I changed my whole principles , my personality and my character just to be as loved as she was , for example in high school cats fights when i used to lose or retreat she encouraged me to be brave to fear nothing , i owe her that specially after she died in a tragic car accident four years ago at the age of Twenty Eight .
The strangest thing is that i always dream of her i never forgot her , i feel she's like my best friend till now though shes dead . Can you imagine the feeling of the presence of a soul near to you , yea that exactly what i feel now ., sometimes when i'm stuck in a situation of something i defend myself feeling that she is beside me .
The odd thing is that back then i used to change myself or imitate whatsoever but now after Fifteen years i'm trying to get back to real me but unfortunately i cant , i cant remember who i was i cant even describe what my nature is or what my personality was . I feel that too much imitating or playing around made me a non complete creature , always something missing or there is a "me "whom i dont know nor understand .
Finally the moral i get from this is that we never knew how much we have until we lose it and My god have mercy upon your soul SHERINE .
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