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وعمايله 678

27 December 2010
           
الفيلم ده عمل ايه ، عمل حاجه كبيرة اوى خلى الواحد يفتكر ، قلب عليا المواجع
 هو فيلم حلو اوى و المخرج عبقرى بس انا من كتر اللى شوفته مش مصدقه ان ممكن يبقى فى حد بيدافع عن ست بالحماس ده و خصوصا لو راجل و شاب 
دى اول حاجه
تانى حاجه بقى انا الفيلم اثر فيا اوى مش عشان كل اللى حصل فيه حصلى قبل كده لاء عشان انا كنت فاكرة انى نسيت و ان اللى حصلى مسابش فيا اثر ، انا صاحبتى اللى حضرت الفيلم معايا نبهتنى لحاجه ، هى طول الوقت بتنتقد فيا انى متبلده و دايما تقوللى يا جبله و دايما تقول انى مش بحس و انى عايشه زى الميته 
بعد الفيلم نبهتنى انى بقيت زى الممثله بشرى فى الفيلم الاهانه دى اثرت فيا و انا مش حاسه معرفش ده حقيقى ولا لاء بس كل اللى اعرفه انه كان اللى بيحصل بيحصل و انا بشتم او بمد ايدى على السافل اللى بيعمل كده و بتناسى و بدفن فى اللاوعى و كنت فاكرة انى طبيعيه ، لما شفت بشرى و لقيت انى بقيت عامله زيها اتاكدت 
ليه انا بقول كده لازم احكى ايه وجهه نظرى عن التحرش يعنى ايه تحرش؟؟
تحرش يعنى لما البلد ميبقاش فيها نظام للتعليم و البنات تسافر عشان تروح الجامعات و تضطر تركب جميع اشكال و اصناف المواصلات
تحرش يعنى لما البنت 18 سنه لسه طالعه من البيت اول حاجه تعملها انها  تركب المترو 
عارفين يعنى ايه تركب المترو يعنى تدخل بقوة الدفع تبقى واقفه قدام عربيه الستات تلاقى نفسها اتحشرت فى عربيه الرجاله تلاقى نفسها فى بتاع 5 او 6 ايدين كل ايد ماسكة حته فيها تلاقى الايدين اللى بتحاول تدخل تحت الهدوم و تصرخ بس كله بيتفرج تلاقى اللى وقف يهزقها انتى ايه اللى ركبك هنا متلاقيش حد يقوم و يقعدها مع انها ممكن هى تلاقى حد عجوز تقوم و تقعده لو كانت هى قاعده
و حدث عن المترو ولا حرج اللى كان فى جامعه حلوان حيفهم انا قصدى ايه 
فى يوم المترو عطل و كان اخر الناس محطة السيده زينب ف الناس كلها بتنزل السيده زينب و تستنى مترو مكمل لحلوان ، المهم نزلت و استنيت و اتاخرت على المحاضرة طبعا المترو جه انا لقيت نفسى فعلا و الله بدخل بقوة الدفع رجلى مش طايله الارض و انا شايله مسطرة تى و سكتشات و شايله كذا حاجه فى ايدى و شايفة بعينى منظر زى الكابوس لما بفتكره ، ايدين ايدين و انا جوة دايرة واحد ماسك ايدى ورا ضهرى و انا بصرخ و برفص و بالنسبه للرجاله ده كان مصلحة عشان جسمى بيتهز عياط مش قادرة اعيط ، بصرخ و محدش سامعنى ة بالنسبه لانى قصيرة انا مكنتش شايفة السقف انا لو مش عيب كنت وصفت اتعمل فيا ايه و الصوابع اتغرزت فى جسمى لحد فين 

كل ده و انا لسه بشوف الدنيا برة البيت 

تحرش يعنى بلاها المترو ده بهدله نركب من رمسيس او احمد حلمى يعنى المينى باص اللى يوصل للمعادى و اخد مترو او ميكروباص اتوستراد من المعادى بقى و دى قصه قصه المينى باص من المهندسين لرمسيس مينى باص 72 و من رمسيس مينى باص 58 لميدان الاتحاد انا اتعملت من المترو انى اركب من اول الخط عشان اروح قاعده مش واقفه فى ملحوظة الكلام ده ان ده سنه 1998 سنه ما كنت فى اولى كليه مكانش فيه اوبشانز كتير للمواصلات ، المهم المينى باص اه نسيت اقول انى كنت بركب المينى باص من احمد عرابى و هو راجع ميدان لبنان عشان مستناهوش و هو جاى مليان اروح فيه و هو راجع و ادفع تذكرة تانى عشان ابقى قاعده و ما ادراك من اللى بيعدوا جنبك رجاله اشكال و الوان ده غير اللى بيقف فى الترقة يحك فيك لو انت قاعده على الطرف و ما ادراك ما هو الحك تبقى الواحده قاعده على سيفها عشان مفيش حاجه تلمسها و يا مصيبه سودة لو اضطريت اركب واقفه مصيبببببه ايدين رجالى بتفعص و ايدين حريمى عايزة تنشل
اكيد ليا فى كل حاجه قصه فاصله اللى بتخلينى اغير وسيله المواصلات و قصه المينى باص ايه ، كنت راكبه 72 من رمسيس للمهندسين من اول الخط راكبه جنب الشباك و ركب جنبى راجل لايقل عن 70 سنه و شايل كرتونة المهم الراجل مكحكح شكله ميجيبش ان فيه صحة يبص اصلا المهم حاطط الكرتونة على رجله و انا حاطه شنطتى الكروس بينى و بينه المهم ايديه واحده على الكرتونة من فوق اللى على الطرف و التانيه اللى ناحيتى من تحت الكرتونة بتلعب و بتلعب ايه بتقرص المهم قلت انا اتعلمت من تجاربى قبل كده و قرفت انا هبهدله و دى كانت اول مرة امد ايدى على راجل و مش اى واحد عنده 70 سنه انا استنيت لحد ما ايده سرحت اوى قمت مسكاها هبشاها ايدى ماسكه ايدة بتلطشه بالقلم بيها و ايدى التانيه بتلطشه بردو بالقلم على الناحيه التانيه و اعدت اصرخ بقى و فاكرة كلامى بالظبط قلتله هى دى ميتنفعش تبقى جنبك يا ابن الكلب :D
انا اول مرة فى حياتى اعمل كده او تجيلى جرأه اعمل كده المهم قلت بلاها مينى باص و جينا عزلنا اصلا رحنا مدينه جديده حلو كده المواصلات بقت ايه بقى سوبر جيت شرق الدلتا و متنيل هو كمان

تحرش يعنى شرق الدلتا يعنى السوبر شيت يعنى تعد على الكرسى و تحجز الكرسى اللى جنبك عشان مفيش حد يعد جنبك بس حظك الاسود يخليك تعد جنب الشباك يعنى اللى قاعد وراك يمد ايه من جنب الكرسى و طبعا كان فيه كذا تجربة بكذا رد فعل بس اكيد كان فيه الموقف الفاصل
الموقف الفاصل فى السوبر شيت لما تعد و يعد وراك راجل محترم فارد الجرنال على اخرة ايد ماسكه الجرنال و ايد سارحه على الكرسى اللى قدامك من جنب الشباك و طبعا سارحة زى الاخطبوط مش شايفة ولا طايله حاجه بس بتلعب و تحاول ده غير انى بقيت واحده بتخض يعنى اى نسمة هوا تهز الهدوم اتخض ابص ورايا فى حد ولا لاء ف الكلب ده بعتنى احس بحاجه ابص ملاقيش حاجه بقيت قاعده ببص يمين و شمال و المهم قلت انا خبرة لازم اديله على دماغة قلت هعمل نفسى من قلقانه مش هبص يمين و شمال و هديله الامان و فعلا اديتله الامان مد ايده اكتر و اكتر و بعدين افتكرنى مبسوطة لحد ما ايده وصلت لجنب رجلى قمت بدبوس الايشارب و بكل قوة و رشقته فى ايده و الراجل بتاع التذاكر اللى بيبقى فى اول كرسى فى السوبر شيت انا كنت قاعده اول كرسى و الراجل ده قدامى قبل ما ارشق الدبوس شاورتله يبص بص شافنى و انا بعور التانى دى و نزله فى الطريق الصحراوى
و دى كانت نهايه السوبر شيت

تحرش يعنى لما تركب ميكروباص و تاخد طنبة لوحدك محدش يعد جنبك و تلاقى بردة اللى بيمد ايه من بين ضهر الكنبة و قاعدتها من وراك طبعا 
المهم خلصت الجامعة بحلوها و مرها اللى كان اكتر طبعا و ابتدينا نشوف الشغل

تحرش يعنى لما تشتغل فى مصانع كبيرة و تتعب و يتهد حيلك و توصل لدرجة اعلى و تلاقى مدير فى درجة اعلى منك بيتحرش بيك اول مرة بقى افهم التحرش بالنظرات ، نظرات تقرف و تبقى ملتزم وكلامك فى الشغل و تلاقى اللى بيحور كل ما تتكلم كلمة يقولها تانى بمعنى تانى او يدخلها فى جملة بذيئة و لما تعترض او تقدر انه مديرك تنبهه بالراحه تلاقى نفسك مرزوع شكوى او اسفين و تعد على كده شهورو العمليه من سئ الى اسوأ 

انا ياناس بحب شغلى و بحب اشتغل و الاقى ده حته كلب ولا يسوى فى الاربعينات و متجوز و عنده طفلين و ده عمايله بقى لا تتحكى ولا تتوصف من كلام بذئ ل لمس غير مقصود زى مايبقى معدى و انا معديه يعمل نفسه متكعبل او يجى يوطى فجأه قدامى وانا ماشيه ولا لما يبقى بيتكلم فى الشغل و عايز يشد انتباهى و يشد دراعى او يلمس كتفى و تهزقة بالذوق مفيش و تهزقه بالصوت العالى مفيش فايده يهمد اسبوع و يرجع يبتدى لحد ما بقيت ليل و نهار بتخانق معاه و فى نفس الوقت ليل نهار شكاوى فيا و توقيع فى الغلط و ارتكاب غلطات و يبقى اسمى اللى عليها ده مكانش يتقال عليه اقل من كلمة ست شرشوحة هو كده بالظبط لحد بردو ما جت نقطه فاصله 

جبته اعدت اقرره فى الكلام و انا فاتحه الموابايل على ريكورد سجلتله كلامة عن الناس و سالته عايز منى ايه قال بصراحه مقرفة  و فى منتهى البذاءه عايز منى ايه و كان اكيد قله ادب
و قلت انا تعبت يخرب بيت العيشه اللى تذل دى و رحت مودية التسجيل للمدير العام و صاحب الشركة المهم الحيوان ده اترفد 

المصيبه فى اللى جرالى بعد كده انه ابقى انا كمان متهمه و لازم اسيب الشغل عشان انا اللى سهله انا اللى خليته يتكلم معايا كده انا اكيد اديتله فرصة انا اكيد كنت مظبطه معاه و قلبت عليه ، ده كان رأى صحاب الشركة فيا و كان قرارهم بتطفيشى عشان ميبقوش رفدونى و رفدوه فى وقت واحد

و ابتدى كل قرف الدنيا و بهدله ما بعدها بهدله و سبت شغلى و اعدت فى البيت 
سبت شغلى بعد ما كنت وصلت لمدير
سبت شغلى و انا اللى مظلومة
سبت شغلى بعد سنين اعدتها بعد ما انا عديت سن ال 30
سبت شغلى و ببتدى من الصفر و انا 32 سنه 
سبت شغلى و انا قرفانه من الرجاله و مشعايزة اتجوز و مشعايزة اشتغل عند حد
سبت شغلى و اعده عاله فى البيت 
خللى الرجاله تتبسط
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Wave 6

10 October 2010

Dad!! this work i missed saying it though it means a lot  , if i want to describe my dad i'd say that iam the identical copy of him of course i didnt know this at time but i knew too late . 

All my life we were not having a good relationship because of that resemblance , when he suddenly died i couldn't express what i feel or what am i gonna go through , i was insecure and lost . 


He was so moody , so intelligent , so sensitive and unable to express also , but i always admired and envied him for being so smart , he died young and full of suffering not from disease of need but from inside out , from intelligence that didnt cope with life and a mind that didnt shut down ever .

Since i was a child i heard about intelligence that leads to suffer but i didnt believe it till i've seen whats happening for my dad . I'm now suffering the same i have the same symptoms from etching from stupid people to never ending insomnia . 

He died 13 years ago and since then everyone knew him always say how he was the almost perfect human in a world that never appreciate . So Dad , sorry for everything wrong i did and i still do and for the moments that passed while you were alive and i didnt take advantage of it . From my point of view now i can say that being dumb is a bliss .
 
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Wave 5

08 October 2010

             She is a middle aged woman , pretty woman , to describe how she affected me i have to narrate her story first . She was born in a broken family without so much details she married when she was Nineteen and moved to another country God save them all she raised Six children . 

Suddenly she lost he sweet home when a war broke out in that country , she moved back to Egypt with nothing except her husband , children and a little of clothes . She raised them well they are now full grown ups men and women , i admire her endless love for her husband and everyone around her , wish god save them all .

The thing is she's like a saint , she never says anything wrong or bad or even about anyone  , her tongue is sweet as honey though everything she passed through . I keep noticing her and wonder if i were her i'd be a lunatic right now .


When i see her i believe women can do anything that women is the source of everything , yes women are so powerful they can do miracles . Near her i can see the true meaning of the motherhood with my own eyes , i can learn. how to give love and security .

Sometimes when i have the urge to change i look at her and see what will she do in that situation or something , finally i picture myself when im that mature to be just like her .

 
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Wave 4

04 October 2010

                        He is really one of a kind , he impressed a whole generation my generation . He is a musician ,  a composer and a singer , he just has the unique voice that no one ever has it . 

When i was 6 years old i heard him for the first time , i wasnt believing that this voice is really his . Before him i didnt feel the music and since i knew him the music became my feeling's motivation . Sometimes you feel that the guy you listening to is very close to your heart , he is expressing your inside . 

This guy made a difference in taste most of the people back then , he also made some talents a huge starts today , he took their hands and drove them safely to the shore of success in art life . 

A common topic in his songs is about the one being remote and distant from oneself or from people or a country , this topic influenced me my whole life . you know when someone expressing exactly how you feel so far from your environment and lost in your society , while if you stayed a whole day trying to collect words expressing what you feel you are unable to find any . 

From what i know about his background i know he was a foreigner in Egypt , he came from  Libya , he was born to a Libyan father and Egyptian mother , he passed all the obstacles that faced him including forbid him from singing in Egypt due to selfishness of some people that happen to be in command of such decisions . 

But he is back mature and lovely as he always was , i really appreciate him for music and voice that moved my soul and changed me forever . 

P.S : That was the master Hamid El-Sha3ery    
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Wave 3

03 October 2010


                           I was like Eight years old when i first saw him , actually i panicked when i saw him , he was like Eighty years old man . He was limping and he had long white hair , i was confused what was this is he a monster or what , that happened when i was 8 years old normal child at school , you can imagine how my brain was back then . 

He was visiting the school , what i've told back then that he was old teacher used to work in school . What he was doing back then was the most weird thing to my mind at that time . He had with him a well written wisdom's and versus of the Quraan  , he had them on separate papers and started to pass them to every child in the class . I used to make fun of him at that time but i dont know why after almost 25 years old i just remembered him . Simply because we dont know who made a difference in our life just at time , now i know he made a difference . 

He was so old and still feeling he has a message to deliver  , it was simple but i didnt get it till now 
 Being doing something means being alive 
I wonder how that man was alive more than me now , he was feeling that he has to give as long as he is alive while i'm very much younger and i dont feel that . Finally i just sometimes ask myself is it our time who made me like this or iam naturally like this .  
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Wave 2

02 October 2010



              Mighty Kou , i loved calling him that because i dont know i just feel him as a cartoon character , thought he is a normal adult person . It is so lovely to be around him , he made me feel for the first time the tragic fun , however i made this expression up but it is just what i feel with him 

So what is it about him i tell you what about him , he is a strange mix of many behaviors and attitudes , one time he is naughty , the other time he is conservative , one time he is just funny and baby like and another time he is mature and complex . Sometimes i feel responsible of him and the other times i feel like he guides me .

He affected my life in a unique way , he made me think about rodents , he made my life filled with shrimps and squids not to eat but to think about and he also made lizards a part of my everyday thinking . You may see that something not worthy but from my point of view i could see myself thinking more about nature , see the simplest things around me and feel it . As a conclusion he is a main reason of me becoming sometimes so dreamy .  

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Wave 1

01 October 2010
 


                 She was a normal girl , I've known her for more than 10 years . I dont know why she was my idol when i was young . She was so arrogant though she was very cute , early in that age " and by age i mean 15 years old " i spent lots of time trying to gain her trust , she was a popular one at school , you can imagine how high school was .


Sometimes i hated her because she was so demanding , so dominant on people around her , though i still love her and feel that she really made a difference in my life . 

I changed my whole principles , my personality and my character just to be as loved as she was , for example in high school cats fights when i used to lose or retreat she encouraged me to be brave to fear nothing , i owe her that specially after she died in a tragic car accident four years ago at the age of Twenty Eight .


The strangest thing is that i always dream of her i never forgot her , i feel she's like my best friend till now though shes dead . Can you imagine the feeling of the presence of a soul near to you , yea that exactly what i feel now ., sometimes when i'm stuck in a situation of something i defend myself feeling that she is beside me . 


The odd thing is that back then i used to change myself or imitate whatsoever but now after Fifteen years i'm trying to get back to real me but unfortunately i cant , i cant remember who i was i cant even describe what my nature is or what my personality was . I feel that too much imitating or playing around made me a non complete creature , always something missing or there is a "me "whom i dont know nor understand .

Finally the moral i get from this is that we never knew how much we have until we lose it and My god have mercy upon your soul SHERINE .
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Waves of poeple passing by

   
             There are people in our lives comes n goes , they may affect us or may be not
I like to call people as waves , i love waves . Waves affect the sands and there are huge one's , large one's and tiny one's

People just like waves some may affect you badly and some may affect you the least 
some you could remember them and talk about them in hours . 
and some just pass through your mind in less than a minute .
and some when you just remember them you feel all the hate in world and actually those are lots here . 


So i try to remember those who affected me and my life the most because they deserved it . 
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Quotes For Life

04 June 2010


Why do men like intelligent women? Because opposites attract

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A gentleman is simply a patient wolf

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Patience is not a virtue, it is a waste of time

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If love isn’t a game, then why are there so many players ?

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Girls want a lot of things from one guy. Conversely, guys want one thing from a lot of girls

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Boys fall for me , because i trip them :P

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Those who criticize our generation forget who raised it.

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Misery is almost always the result of thinking.

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Don’t let you mind wander – it’s far too small to be let out on its own.

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If you’re gonna be two faced.. at least try to make one pretty.

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Sometimes I need what only you can provide: your absence.

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On the other hand, you have different fingers. LOL

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Light travels faster than sound. This is why some people appear bright until they speak

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One meets his destiny often in the road he takes to avoid it.

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Don't take life to seriouly because you'll never get out alive

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* Begin with the end in mind.

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* I'm not so think as you drunk I am.

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* The only difference between your abilities and others is the ability to put

yourself in their shoes and actually try


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* The journey is the reward


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* Our sickness is between our ears.


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* Treat your mind like a bad neighborhood - don't go there alone.


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* A smooth sea never made a skillful mariner.

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* It's so hard when I have to, and so easy when I want to.

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* Bad is never good until worse happens.


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* You can't run away from trouble. There ain't no place that far.


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*Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer

but wish we didn't


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* If you can't convince them, confuse them.


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* I only drink to make other people seem more interesting.


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* Physical strength is measured by what we can carry,

spiritual by what we can bear.


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* There is no cosmetic for beauty like happiness.


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* What you see depends on what you're looking for.


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* Don't take life to seriously because you'll never get out alive


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* Be a good listener. Your ears will never get you in trouble.


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* One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure

its worth watching.


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* A man's brain has a more difficult time shifting from

thinking to feeling than a woman's brain does.


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* To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart.


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* If you can calculate the risk you can obviously measure the result.

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* Things turn out best for those who make the best of the way things turn out.