Wave 6

Dad!! this work i missed saying it though it means a lot  , if i want to describe my dad i'd say that iam the identical copy of him of course i didnt know this at time but i knew too late . 

All my life we were not having a good relationship because of that resemblance , when he suddenly died i couldn't express what i feel or what am i gonna go through , i was insecure and lost . 


He was so moody , so intelligent , so sensitive and unable to express also , but i always admired and envied him for being so smart , he died young and full of suffering not from disease of need but from inside out , from intelligence that didnt cope with life and a mind that didnt shut down ever .

Since i was a child i heard about intelligence that leads to suffer but i didnt believe it till i've seen whats happening for my dad . I'm now suffering the same i have the same symptoms from etching from stupid people to never ending insomnia . 

He died 13 years ago and since then everyone knew him always say how he was the almost perfect human in a world that never appreciate . So Dad , sorry for everything wrong i did and i still do and for the moments that passed while you were alive and i didnt take advantage of it . From my point of view now i can say that being dumb is a bliss .
 

Wave 5

             She is a middle aged woman , pretty woman , to describe how she affected me i have to narrate her story first . She was born in a broken family without so much details she married when she was Nineteen and moved to another country God save them all she raised Six children . 

Suddenly she lost he sweet home when a war broke out in that country , she moved back to Egypt with nothing except her husband , children and a little of clothes . She raised them well they are now full grown ups men and women , i admire her endless love for her husband and everyone around her , wish god save them all .

The thing is she's like a saint , she never says anything wrong or bad or even about anyone  , her tongue is sweet as honey though everything she passed through . I keep noticing her and wonder if i were her i'd be a lunatic right now .


When i see her i believe women can do anything that women is the source of everything , yes women are so powerful they can do miracles . Near her i can see the true meaning of the motherhood with my own eyes , i can learn. how to give love and security .

Sometimes when i have the urge to change i look at her and see what will she do in that situation or something , finally i picture myself when im that mature to be just like her .

 

Wave 4

                        He is really one of a kind , he impressed a whole generation my generation . He is a musician ,  a composer and a singer , he just has the unique voice that no one ever has it . 

When i was 6 years old i heard him for the first time , i wasnt believing that this voice is really his . Before him i didnt feel the music and since i knew him the music became my feeling's motivation . Sometimes you feel that the guy you listening to is very close to your heart , he is expressing your inside . 

This guy made a difference in taste most of the people back then , he also made some talents a huge starts today , he took their hands and drove them safely to the shore of success in art life . 

A common topic in his songs is about the one being remote and distant from oneself or from people or a country , this topic influenced me my whole life . you know when someone expressing exactly how you feel so far from your environment and lost in your society , while if you stayed a whole day trying to collect words expressing what you feel you are unable to find any . 

From what i know about his background i know he was a foreigner in Egypt , he came from  Libya , he was born to a Libyan father and Egyptian mother , he passed all the obstacles that faced him including forbid him from singing in Egypt due to selfishness of some people that happen to be in command of such decisions . 

But he is back mature and lovely as he always was , i really appreciate him for music and voice that moved my soul and changed me forever . 

P.S : That was the master Hamid El-Sha3ery    

Wave 3

                           I was like Eight years old when i first saw him , actually i panicked when i saw him , he was like Eighty years old man . He was limping and he had long white hair , i was confused what was this is he a monster or what , that happened when i was 8 years old normal child at school , you can imagine how my brain was back then . 

He was visiting the school , what i've told back then that he was old teacher used to work in school . What he was doing back then was the most weird thing to my mind at that time . He had with him a well written wisdom's and versus of the Quraan  , he had them on separate papers and started to pass them to every child in the class . I used to make fun of him at that time but i dont know why after almost 25 years old i just remembered him . Simply because we dont know who made a difference in our life just at time , now i know he made a difference . 

He was so old and still feeling he has a message to deliver  , it was simple but i didnt get it till now 

 Being doing something means being alive 

I wonder how that man was alive more than me now , he was feeling that he has to give as long as he is alive while i'm very much younger and i dont feel that . Finally i just sometimes ask myself is it our time who made me like this or iam naturally like this .  

Wave 2

              Mighty Kou , i loved calling him that because i dont know i just feel him as a cartoon character , thought he is a normal adult person . It is so lovely to be around him , he made me feel for the first time the tragic fun , however i made this expression up but it is just what i feel with him  . 

So what is it about him i tell you what about him , he is a strange mix of many behaviors and attitudes , one time he is naughty , the other time he is conservative , one time he is just funny and baby like and another time he is mature and complex . Sometimes i feel responsible of him and the other times i feel like he guides me .

He affected my life in a unique way , he made me think about rodents , he made my life filled with shrimps and squids not to eat but to think about and he also made lizards a part of my everyday thinking . You may see that something not worthy but from my point of view i could see myself thinking more about nature , see the simplest things around me and feel it . As a conclusion he is a main reason of me becoming sometimes so dreamy .  

Wave 1

 


                 She was a normal girl , I've known her for more than 10 years . I dont know why she was my idol when i was young . She was so arrogant though she was very cute , early in that age " and by age i mean 15 years old " i spent lots of time trying to gain her trust , she was a popular one at school , you can imagine how high school was .


Sometimes i hated her because she was so demanding , so dominant on people around her , though i still love her and feel that she really made a difference in my life . 

I changed my whole principles , my personality and my character just to be as loved as she was , for example in high school cats fights when i used to lose or retreat she encouraged me to be brave to fear nothing , i owe her that specially after she died in a tragic car accident four years ago at the age of Twenty Eight .


The strangest thing is that i always dream of her i never forgot her , i feel she's like my best friend till now though shes dead . Can you imagine the feeling of the presence of a soul near to you , yea that exactly what i feel now ., sometimes when i'm stuck in a situation of something i defend myself feeling that she is beside me . 


The odd thing is that back then i used to change myself or imitate whatsoever but now after Fifteen years i'm trying to get back to real me but unfortunately i cant , i cant remember who i was i cant even describe what my nature is or what my personality was . I feel that too much imitating or playing around made me a non complete creature , always something missing or there is a "me "whom i dont know nor understand .

Finally the moral i get from this is that we never knew how much we have until we lose it and My god have mercy upon your soul SHERINE .

Waves of poeple passing by

   
             There are people in our lives comes n goes , they may affect us or may be not
I like to call people as waves , i love waves . Waves affect the sands and there are huge one's , large one's and tiny one's

People just like waves some may affect you badly and some may affect you the least 
some you could remember them and talk about them in hours . 
and some just pass through your mind in less than a minute .
and some when you just remember them you feel all the hate in world and actually those are lots here . 


So i try to remember those who affected me and my life the most because they deserved it .